I Cant't Help Still Loving You

        For the last month Blair has taken me in, I've been a wreck crying, screaming, sulking... you know the grief process. It's been nice I guess I mean I love Blair and her kids but, I'm not good with kids I made Carter cry 6 times.... Me and children don't work  never have needless to say. It was a nice May day, the birds were chirping the breeze was cool and the flowers were growing and pain was easing away. I was planting some flowers, you know being helpful when I heard it. The sound of the familiar engine the way it hummed and its clarity, the sound you only get from a Ferrari, quickly I got on my feet and smoothed out my shorts for whatever reason. Then he got out of the car his black hair combed back his blue jeans on and if it wasn't for the white polo he could easily be mistaken  for a greaser. In his hand he had a bouquet of sweet briar roses my favorite, I glared at him as he walked towards me trying not to show emotion. Just hear me out he said defensively , holding out the roses, Hear you out, I sarcastically asked  grabbing the roses, you don't even call me for a month! I yell hitting him with the bouquet, I know I'm sorry he said. Your sorry that's all you have to say! at this point ';m screaming and wacking him as hard as I can with a bouquet of flowers, you think you can drive on up with your god damn Ferrari and some damn flowers and fix it all! still hitting him No he stammered I,I, I. You what thought I would fall into your arms and forgive you! No he said, then what! I don't know he stammered. By now I'm realizing that the thorns from the roses have cut open his arm, Then I realize Blair and the kids are watching from the window, come here I yelled motioning toward my car. I dig through my trunk till I find the first aid kit, I pull out the sterile wipes and proceed to clean up his wounds I inflicted upon him. Ow he mumered that stings, get over it I snipe. I guess I deserved that beating, this time I looked up at him and smiled, you did, then he laughed and I felt myself regain those feelings I was working so hard to loose. Are  your suppose to be off for your summer internship thing for the summer? I asked, yeah at  8 my flight leaves that's why I wanted to talk to you not get beat by a bouquet of roses. We already established you deserved that I said, I did he shrugged so anyways.... Iumm , you what? I asked, I wanted to try this again I mean you live in the condo I'll go to school we'll see each other on break, but if you meet someone else while I'm away then so be it you know I just want to know we still have a chance. What if you meet someone else I asked, Fizzle there is no one else I mean where else am I going to get beat by a bouquet of roses? Well so were talking a no strings attached relationship I ask. Fizzle how else are we going to do this, I don't know I snap all I do know is I love you and I don't want to loose you and I don't know why you didn't come after me when I left because if you did I would have melted back into your arms just like I'm about to do now! I didn't come after you because I thought you were better off without me he whispered. And why would you think a dumb thing like that I said easing myself then stroking his hair, I don't know he said looking into my eyes and then he had me again just like he did on the first day we met. then our lips moved closer together, each of us afraid to breath and he kissed me softly and sweetly. When I pulled away I smiled at him do I still get to wear the ring I laughed, I was hoping you would say that he chuckled then he reached into his pocket and pulled out the perfect yellow diamond ring out, I always loved it the yellow cushion cut diamond in a double halo of diamonds. Then he slid it onto my finger and smiled. No promises right I asked, no promises he said. Then he recited to me a lyric of our song "A wise man said that only fools rush in" "But I cant help falling in love with you" I recited back. When 8 came I watched him board his plane. And I watched it take off, I got my things from Blair's and went to the condo it was quiet. I turned on the TV and curled in up in the bed. Then I just stared at the diamond for a while until I drifted asleep.